Sunday, December 31, 2006

He still hasn't arrived

*RING*
*RING*
*RING*

"Hello."

"Oh hey Jen, I guess I fell asleep."

"No, he hasn't shown up yet."

*BEEP*

"Oh, this is him. I'll call you back."

"Where have you been? I've been worried sick...What? Who is this?"

"No, he's not married, I'm Carolyn, his girlfriend. What's wrong?"

"No, that's his sister. What happened?"

"OH NO! What hospital?"

"I'll call her we'll be right there."

"Elliot, *sniff* I'm sorry to call so late *sniff* I need you..."

Stood up?

JP should've been here an hour ago. I've tried to call but he isn't answering his cell. I called his sister, Jen and she hasn't heard from him either. I'm sure traffic is very heavy since he has to pass near Times Square. Still, that doesn't explain why he isn't answering the phone. He'll show up eventually, maybe.
Well tonight is the big night! I will be ringing in the New Year with JP and his family. I've never celebrated it in with someone special before, I hope it goes well! I really do love him. I think I forgot to mention-he told me on Christmas that he loves me. It took me by surprise, my first response was "Thank you". I know, he laughed too. When I realized what I did I blushed and said "I meant-I love you too". It was really very sweet.

On a side note: I will reach my 200th post soon, I'm thinking of doing something special for that. Oh great, I am becoming such a GEEK!

Friday, December 29, 2006

"To love by freely giving is its own reward. To be possessed by love and to in turn give love away is to find the secret of abundant life"
*Gloria Gaither

Wednesday, December 27, 2006

I forgot to post anything the past couple of days, sorry! Things just got so busy with the holidays. My house guests left, FINALLY. Mike gets cranky when awaken from a 3 day nap. I had to use about 6 cans of Lysol to get rid of that smell. I don't even want to know what it was.
JP and I are supposed to go out for New Year's Eve. I think we are going to his sister's house. It should be fun. Not a lot going on between now and then. I should probably go check on Elliot, I haven't talked to him since the party.
How was everyone's Christmas? What did Santa bring you? When is Nomi coming back?

Sunday, December 24, 2006

The aftermath

I FINALLY got everything almost cleaned up. It didn't take as long as I thought it would. I still have two big stains, er make that two big pains in the living room. I knew Mike could sleep for days at a time but I didn't know John could too. I went to my family thing eariler when I got back they had moved positions so I know they are in fact alive. I check their pulse every couple of hours just to be sure. Mike's friend Millie called earlier. She is supposed to come by and scrape him off the couch but she can't come until tomorrow. I told her it was fine as long as she promised to pull John off the floor and take him too. I told her where the spare key was in case I wasn't home when she came. JP didn't want to leave with them still here.
"I can't believe you're jealous of John and Mike."
Well you dated one of them.
"I think the key there is DATED, which means in the past as in NOT now!"
You could still have feelings for him.
"Look we've had this discussion before. You have GOT to trust me or this will never work."
Yeah, I know, I guess I'm just tired. Sorry.
"Okay then. Go enjoy your family Christmas thing. I'll talk to you tomorrow."
Anyway, it's late, tomorrow is a busy day and I need rest.

The details

Thanks to everyone for coming to the party and thanks for keeping your pants on. All the guests seemed to have a good time, some more than others. ;) Everyone except Jack ended up staying over. I stole John's keys early on because he and Mike had started drinking before they got to the party. Drunken Munch looking for keys is quite funny. He never figured out where they went and finally just gave up and passed out on the floor.
I thought it would be difficult to get Elliot's keys but after a couple of drinks all I had to do was say "Hey, let me see your keys for a minute". I made sure I called Liv and Maureen and explained why he wouldn't be leaving the house. I think Liv was a little concerned until she heard him and JP singing in the background. She decided I could keep him until he sobered up. He sure is cranky when he wakes up by the way. He didn't remember much about the party. I don't think he even remembers that I DID wear the outfit or the mistletoe incident.
Dani didn't get drunk she just stayed to help me maintain order. She seemed to enjoy herself. She was a little nervous at first but after she realized Logan and Munch weren't dangerous just weird, she relaxed. I couldn't even begin to tell you some of the crazy-ass crap the two of them pulled.
JP wasn't too thrilled about Elliot showing up alone but he got over it. You should have seen the two of them, singing and dancing. It was great.
I had fun. I'm so glad I didn't cancel it. The house is a mess though. I really hope some of my friends decide to help me clean up. It will take an industrial cleaning. Here's a little incentive to get some help: I have pictures and I'm not afraid to use them.
The house is a mess, you don't even want to know what it smells like and I just stepped on someone in the middle of the floor. I guess that means the party was a success. I have a killer headache so I'm going back to bed. Will fill you in on details at a more decent hour.

Saturday, December 23, 2006

Found a place for the mistletoe:

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It's almost time to PARTY!!!!!!!!!

I'm thinking about...

...wearing this to the party:
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Too much?

JP helped me get the house cleaned up and hang some decorations. He didn't want me to put up any mistletoe, not sure why. I wasn't in the mood to argue so I just didn't put any up. I made sure I have plenty of extra blankets and pillows in case Mike anyone drinks too much to leave. I woke up way too early, I just couldn't sleep. I'm so excited about the party, I'm like a kid at Christmas. I've got cookies in the oven. All the rest of the food is made. I have a vegetable tray, with no carrots; a meat tray; a cheese tray; some finger sandwiches; a cake and of course ice cream! Drinks are also taken care of. I made punch, I have apple cider and hot chocolate ready to heat up. Mike is bringing some "spirits" but I'm not sure if he will share them! Oh speaking of MIke, he is bringing Munch to the party. Mike & Munch drunk together is so funny to see. Jack never said for sure if he could make it but he said he would try. Elliot is coming, he wasn't sure if Liv would be able to though and I think Dani decided to come. It should be an interesting party. I think I'm winding down some, as soon as these cookies finish I am going to catch a nap.

Friday, December 22, 2006

Giving and receiving

Elliot dropped by unexpectedly last night. He brought me a very lovely necklace. As he put it around my neck and hugged me I closed my eyes and got lost in the feeling for a few minutes. He told me not to ever doubt how much my friendship meant to him. I tried not to cry as I thanked him. After he told me Merry Christmas I decided to give him his gift.
"Here, it's not as meaningful as the necklace but I hope you like it. I was told it is great for Irish Coffee."
Thanks Caro, I love it.




Wednesday, December 20, 2006

Confiance?

He says he does trust me but thought I would leave if he told me what happened. He says we need to talk but when I try, he doesn't want to hear it and leaves. Am I the only who thinks that doesn't make sense? I shouldn't have opened the door.
Back then I told myself nothing happened between us because he loved Liv. I guess knowing he kissed someone else made me feel like he just didn't find me desirable. I'll be honest it hurt my feelings. It doesn't matter. I have too many other things going on to worry about this now.

Tuesday, December 19, 2006

Busy, busy week. Thankfully JP is off Friday and he has agreed to help me get things cleaned up and ready. He even offered to help make some food, isn't that cute? I have to go shopping before Friday, that is really going to be stressful. I don't like shopping when it isn't busy, I sure enough hate it during this time of the year. Elliot keeps calling I should probably see what he wants. I certainly hope someone else is hosting the next party, I had forgotten how hard it was to get things together.

Monday, December 18, 2006

I have got so much to do before this party! I hope I can charm JP into helping clean the house. Just so everyone is clear: Naked Twister would be a direct violation of rule #1 below, sorry. If you want to play SHIRTLESS Twister that would be okay but everyone must keep their pants on at all times!
In case I failed to mention it: The party is Saturday night at 7pm and dress is casual. Again, feel free to come early and help set up. Might be a good idea to keep your beepers off too so you can't get called away to an emergency. I'd like to get a rough guess as to how many are coming so if you could let me know if you're planning on attending I would appreciate it.

Sunday, December 17, 2006

Thought this was cute:

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Input please-

Anyone have any party suggestions? Such as: Entertainment, food to serve, or any other ideas for a successful party?
Thank you.

Saturday, December 16, 2006

Party over here

I'm having the Christmas party this year. I think I must've still been drunk when I decided to do this. It'll be fun and JP will get to meet everyone. Oh yeah, you are all invited! I do have to set a few ground rules though:
1. Everyone must keep their pants on at all times during the festivities, MIKE!
2. I will furnish the ice cream. Do not try and slip any of that weird stuff in my house, ELLIOT!
3. If you are too drunk to drive you will NOT be allowed to leave. You will sleep it off at my house until sober, still keeping your pants on, MIKE!
4. If JP starts turning Irish, please stop giving him alcohol, ELLIOT!
5. If you spill it, clean it up. No trying to hide stains by strategically moving my plants to cover them.
6. If you have the urge to throw up aim for something other than my plants, JP!

These are just the rules for now, they are subject to change as I see fit. Other than ice cream, feel free to bring food or drinks. If anyone wants to help decorate or clean up after, let me know. I will post more details as it gets closer.

Thursday, December 14, 2006

Alright already, I'll talk

No my perverted friends, we have NOT been making up for two days. We got dehydrated after the first day and had to take a break. ;) Hahaha!

Before we made up we had a HUGE fight. He was convinced there was something going on between Elliot and I.
"I've already told you he and I are just friends."
I just find it difficult to believe the two of you could be that close if nothing is going on. I mean look at you. How could he not be all over you?
"What are you talking about?"
You really don't know how gorgeous you are, do you?
"I am not."
Yes, you are. You amaze me. You are so wonderful and I can't imagine why you want to be with me.
"Whatever. Listen, it would be different if I hadn't always been up front and honest with you about my friendship with him."
I know, but...
"No, no buts. You can either accept the fact that my best friend is male and trust me, or you can find someone else. I will NOT be pressured by you or anyone to give up a friend because of your insecurities. I wouldn't expect you to do something like that. Do I make myself clear?"
He didn't say anything and I thought he was going to leave. I was on the verge of tears but I held strong. He moved close, put his hand softly on my face, gently kissed me and picked me up. I was a little startled. "JP?"
Shhhhhh, he said while kissing me again. He sat me on the bed and started removing my blouse...
The rest you'll just have to use your imagination. I wonder how weird it is that the first thought that crossed my mind was "I hope the sheets are clean"?

Tuesday, December 12, 2006

JP came by last night. We had a HUGE fight. Then after all the yelling and crying, we talked it out and made up. I'll give you more details about the entire situation later, right now I'm late for an appointment. I just thought everyone would like to know that we made up so now I'm happy again!

Sunday, December 10, 2006

We can work it out...

...or can we?
JP finally called. I almost didn't answer because I was still not feeling well and in no mood for confrontation.
Hey, can we talk?
"This is really not the best time."
Why? Is HE there?
"Don't start that crap, I'm not in the mood."
Are you okay?
"Just freaking fabulous."
What's the matter?
"What's the difference?" (I know that was a bit harsh but my head was hurting, disabling my kindness factor.) He didn't say anything and I was getting sick again.
"Did you want something? If not, I really need to go."
Oh, okay. I just...Nevermind it can wait. I'll talk to you later.
"Fine, bye."
Caro?
"Yeah?"
I'm sorry.
click
Looks like another night without sleep.

The lost weekend

I feel like death today but it's my own fault so don't feel sorry for me. I'm not sure which one did me in: the Irish coffee (light on the coffee strong on the Irish) or the milk shake I made using "Baileys with a hint of caramel" instead of milk, seemed like a good idea at the time. Could have been a combination of the two. I know, save the lecture it was a stupid thing to do and I won't do it again. An entire weekend wasted. I sound like Logan. Oh well, too nauseous to cry over it now. I'll up date more later when my head stops pounding long enough for me to formulate a complete thought. Damn, I have GOT to get rid of that phone it is WAY too loud.

Saturday, December 09, 2006

Friday, December 08, 2006

Through the long night

Well I've cried so much I think my tear ducts have dried up. I'm tired. My mind keeps replaying everything over and over which is making my head hurt. I thought I knew how to fix this but now I'm not so sure. I think I need to disappear for a day or two.

Thursday, December 07, 2006

There's a tear in my beer

Elliot came by last night. He told me why JP was so upset. Right now I'm still in shock. The thing is I KNOW I didn't do anything wrong but I still feel this is all my fault. I know what would probably fix this but I can't do it. I need a drink in a BAD way.

Wednesday, December 06, 2006

Dazed and confused

Last night JP and I had just finished eating when Elliot dropped by. He hugged me, tighter than usual, and apologized for his quick departure from lunch the other day. I told him it was okay. I mean I do know how it is when work calls. JP invited him to join us for some wine. As I was in the process of getting the drinks they went outside. I have no idea what they talked about. When they came back in Elliot had decided to forego the wine. He hugged me again and told me I should tell JP how I feel. "I can't Elliot."
After he left JP seemed to be upset. He wouldn't look at me.
"What's wrong?"
I don't want to talk about it.
"Did you two have a fight?"
I DON'T WANT TO TALK ABOUT IT.
"Okay, calm down. We won't talk about it." This was the first time I have heard him raise his voice in anger. I'll be honest, it scared me a little. We sat in silence for what seemed like an eternity, I think it was probably no more than about five minutes. "JP, I there is something I need to tell you."
He looked up and said Don't bother. I'm sure I already know what it is. With that he gathered his things and left, slamming the door on the way out.
I spent the rest of the night trying to figure out what happened. I tried to call him this morning. He didn't answer so I left a message. He hasn't returned my call. I tried to call Elliot too but he was out on a call.

Tuesday, December 05, 2006

Your Emoticon Is Smiling

Right now, you're feeling cheerful and content - without a care in the world.


You Are 72% Passionate, 28% Compassionate

You are very passionate, especially when it comes to love.
In fact, it's sometimes difficult for you to tell between love and lust.
You jump in head first, and figure things out later... usually when it's all over!

Sunday, December 03, 2006

Strange days

I met Elliot for an early lunch today. We haven't got to hang out in a while. I missed him and I really needed to talk to him. We arrived at the same time and hugged hello. We engaged in small talk for a few minutes. Something appeared to be bothering him. "Everything okay Elliot?" Huh? Yeah, fine why? "You don't seem like yourself. JP said he noticed the same thing yesterday." Oh, is that why you wanted to have lunch? Because Danny Boy told you I had a problem? "Uh, no. If you'll recall, I asked you to lunch before you went out with JP. By the way, thanks for not sending him back drunk and Irish again." He laughed at that. I asked how Liv and the kids were. He assured me everything with them was fine. "So nothing is wrong then?" He hesitated briefly then told me everything was great. "I don't believe you but I'm not here to argue with you. I really need to talk you about a few things." I'm listening.
"I think I am in love." He tensed up when I said that. What was that all about?
Oh yeah? Anyone I know? I laughed, "Yes, I think you've met. I think I love JP and I'm scared Elliot." Why? "I haven't had the greatest luck with men. You of all people should know that." Did you tell him? "No. I can't. I'm an old-fashioned girl, I think the guy should say it first." And he hasn't? "No he hasn't." Interesting. I wonder what he meant by that. "I can't tell him, I don't know if he feels the same, and what if he thinks I'm moving too fast?" Calm down Caro. It'll be okay. You are a wonderful person and if he can't see that then you don't need him anyway. I really wanted to believe him but I didn't. "Thanks." Yeah sure, that's what I'm here for. "What is wrong with you?" NOTHING. I need a drink, you want one? "I haven't finished the one I have and I don't think you need another one."
He started to argue but then he didn't. I wouldn't worry about Danny Boy, you two seem very happy together. Then he mumbled something about JP taking me away. I didn't understand exactly what he said and he wouldn't repeat it. At that moment I realized what was bothering him. I reached over, put my hand on his and said "Elliot, I know what you're thinking and you are wrong." He pulled his hand away and gave me a confused look. "Don't look at me like that. You know what I'm talking about. I'm not going anywhere." What? "It doesn't matter who I'm dating or not dating. You are my best friend and I will always be here for you. We have been through so much together how could you possibly think that?" He didn't have a response, he just sat there playing with his food. We sat quietly for a few minutes until his phone rang. Judging by his end of the conversation it was work. I have to go, I'll talk to you later. It was the first time he didn't hug me or make any kind of touching gesture as he left. "Okay, be careful."
It was one of the strangest encounters I've had with him.

Friday, December 01, 2006

Aaaaaaaaaaaahhhhhhhhhhhhhhh HE'S BACK!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Have you ever had a kiss that was so intense you lost the ability to form sentences?
I need to go he went to take his things home and should be back soon. I just wanted to take a minute and let you know he is back!!!!!!!!!!!!

Wednesday, November 29, 2006

Owner of a lonely heart

Hey Sweetie,
Another day filled with boring meetings. Thank goodness tomorrow is the last day, I don't think I could handle being here much longer. One of my associates commented that I seemed different, happier. He wanted to know why, so I showed him your picture. He said I was acting like a high school kid. I THINK he meant that as a compliment. Oh, if you don't mind ask Elliot if he can go out for drinks again when I get back. I'd like to talk to him. I guess I can just call him when I get home.

Time for another meeting. I miss you. I'll talk to you later.

Always,
JP

PS: 42 hours and counting.


He is so sweet. I think I'm smitten!






Monday, November 27, 2006

Only the lonely

Hey Sweetie,
I was wrong, TODAY was the longest day of my life. I don't remember my colleagues being so dull. Could be because I really don't want to be here. It was great to hear your voice last night. Sorry I woke you but I just couldn't wait any longer to talk to you. Did you get your tree put up? Maybe you can help me put mine up when I get back? That is if I can find it. I haven't had it up in years. They just announced my next meeting, I have to go. I'll call you in the morning.

Always,
JP

PS: I miss you.

This will be the longest week of my life. I think I need to go see Elliot or someone.

Sunday, November 26, 2006

One is the loneliest number...

Hey sweetie,
This was the longest day of my life. Everything is so boring. I can hardly wait to get back. I keep your picture with me, that helps. That's not too creepy is it? How are things with you? Did you go see Elliot? Tell them I said hi. Anyway, I need to go. I have another meeting tonight, I will call if it doesn't run to late.
Always,
JP


I kept myself busy by cleaning the house and rearranging some furniture. I now have the perfect spot to put my Christmas tree. Putting up the tree will probably be tomorrow's project.
It's only been one day and I already miss him like crazy.

Saturday, November 25, 2006

I'm bored

JP had some kind of ortho convention so he is out if town. I won't get to see him for an entire week. I don't know if I can handle that or not. We can stay in contact via email and he said he would call me It won't be the same though. I guess it will give me time to do things I have been neglecting lately. Still, I'm going to miss him.

Friday, November 24, 2006

Thanksgiving with JP's family went better than I expected. I was nervous when we got there but I relaxed pretty quickly. They are a nice family. The food was really good and I ate way too much. His sister tried to talk me into going shopping with her today but I declined. I really have no desire to fight all those crowds just to save a couple of dollars. I found out later he had told her how much I hate shopping and when she asked she was just being funny. They were treating me like family. Why does that scare me to death?

Wednesday, November 22, 2006

Almost time

Tomorrow is the big day. I get to meet the parents. I told JP how nervous I have been about it. He assured me things would be fine and that everyone would love me. He made some comment like How could they not love you Carolyn? He also told me he would understand if I chose not to go. I am still nervous but I am going. I will let everyone know how it goes. Today I have to go to the store, which I hate. This is not a good week to be out in the stores!
I hope everyone has a wonderful Thanksgiving!

Saturday, November 18, 2006

I wanna be sedated

I agreed to have Thanksgiving with JP and his family. I'm more than a little nervous. I don't always do well around a bunch of people I don't know. I have met his sister and her husband. The rest of the family I have only heard about. Who knows how many people will be there?! I wonder how mad he would be if I changed my mind about going?

Thursday, November 16, 2006

Thanks to my I-wonder-why-I-put-up-with-him best friend, I got to spend the evening babysitting a drunken orthodontist, who thought he was Irish. It went a little something like this:
"No, your name is not Danny Boy and I won't call you that." I have to remember NOT to let Elliot and JP play together anymore.
"Thank you, but I'm not Irish and my name isn't Rose." I guess it's good they got along though. Maybe that means Elliot really is happy for me.
"Oh no! Don't do that in my flowers!" Oh yeah, he will pay for this!
He finally passed out on the couch. Guess it was a good thing he didn't have any early appointments scheduled.

Wednesday, November 15, 2006

I don't know what is wrong with me. I really like JP, a lot, more than I have liked anyone in a very long time. Well, almost anyone. He is very good to me. It scares me how great things are. I'm afraid of getting hurt again. I know I shouldn't think about things like that but with my bad relationship history, I have to be realistic about it. I should probably talk to him about this because I really want this to work out. I'm whinier than normal today, maybe I'm coming down with something!

Sunday, November 12, 2006

The night the Earth stood still

Our meal with Elliot and Liv went better than I expected. I don't know what I was so worried about. I got to play with Eli. This was the most time I had spent with him and I loved it . He is a very good kid. Almost made me want to have one. JP seemed to enjoy playing with him too.
We had lasagna, one of my all time favorites. Elliot cooked, yes he really can cook. The food was wonderful. It was nice to spend time over there and not feel uncomfortable or out of place. I know I shouldn't be that way, but I am what I am.
Elliot said he was happy for me, I don't think he meant it, but he was trying. By the end of the evening I think he had warmed up to JP. Why wouldn't he? JP is terrific. He is smart, funny, good looking and he is easy to talk to. After we left he (JP) told me how much fun he had and how much he liked my friends. He even suggested we return the favor one day. What a great guy. I never thought I would find someone else I could talk to and depend on.

Saturday, November 11, 2006

Cookie Duster

"I don't know if this is such a good idea. I want you to meet them but, I just don't know."
Oh, it will be fine. I promise I'll be good.
"It's not you I'm worried about."
What do you mean?
"Huh, oh nothing."
I didn't realize I said that out loud. JP and I are going to eat at Elliot and Liv's tonight. I told them I would bring cookies. I made peanut butter and chocolate chip ones. I hope they like them.
"I hope you like them."
The cookies or your friends?
"Both. Either. Whichever."
I'm sure I'll love them. The cookies because you made them. Your friends because you like them and that is good enough for me.
"What a sweet thing to say."
What are you so worried about?
"Nothing. Everything. It's just Elliot and I are very close. We helped each other through some very dark times. I just...It's nothing, I'm just being silly. We'll have a great time. Thanks for being okay with going."
Think nothing of it. I've been looking forward to meeting them.

Friday, November 10, 2006

Bittersweetheart

“Lunch, gee I’m not sure I can.”
But I found a new way to drink coffee without waiting for the brewing process.”
I laughed, “Well that would be worth hearing about, but I’m busy today.”
He hesitated, then asked, “OK, how about tomorrow?”
“Elliot, how about if I call you and let you know? I’ll talk to you soon, OK?”

Click.
Who was that?
"Elliot"
Who?
"Elliot. My best friend, I told you about him.
Your former partner?
"No, that was Mike."
Oh. The paranoid one you dated?
"No, that was Munch."
The lawyer you dated?
"No, that was McCoy."
What is it with you and "M" people?
"Hahaha."
I remember now, he's THAT one.
"Yeah, he's that one."
What did he want?
"He wanted me to go to lunch with him. I told him I couldn't."
Was he upset?
"I doubt it. Why would he be? He's my friend, he understands how it is."

I suddenly had a weird feeling in the pit of my stomach. What if he WAS upset. I didn't exactly give him a chance to respond. I've never turned down spending time with him. I hope nothing was wrong. I don't think I even asked him if he was okay. If there was an emergency he would have told me, wouldn't he? I can't worry about this right now.

You know you could've ask him to go with us, Carolyn. Carolyn? HELLO? HEY BAREK!
"Huh? What? Sorry, I guess I was deep in thought."
No kidding? I said, you could've ask him to go with us. I would really like to meet him.
"Take Elliot with us on a date? You don't think that might be a little awkward? Doesn't matter he wouldn't have went anyway. Besides, you'll meet him soon enough. Did I forget to mention we are going over there for dinner one night?"
That should prove interesting.
"You think so?" He's so cute when he's being coy. That smile makes my toes tingle.

Wednesday, November 08, 2006

Natural thing

Is there anything better than a cup of hot chocolate? Yes, a cup of hot chocolate with someone special. JP just left. The smell of his cologne is still lingering. What a nice feeling.

Tuesday, November 07, 2006

Crazy

Since I'm afraid Ames might hunt me down, I thought I should give a few details about the new man in my life.
His name is JP, I'm not going to tell you what is stands for so don't ask. He goes by JP. ;) He's not involved in any type of law enforcement. We met while I was on a bad date with someone else. It was at a business-type party and my date decided to spend his evening hitting on some blonde in a short skirt. I didn't know anyone else there so I sat at a table in the corner. JP walked by a couple of times before he spoke. He claims he kept chickening out. We talked for a while and the rest, as they say, is history.
Let's see what else might you want to know about him? Oh what he looks like! He looks like a younger version of this guy on a TV show I used to watch...

Sunday, November 05, 2006

Sweet emotion

What a wonderful weekend. Dinner and dancing last night. Brunch and an afternoon movie today. He's too good to be true. He reminds me of someone, I can't quite place who. I am surprisingly comfortable with him though. It's weird and wonderful and I hope it lasts.

Saturday, November 04, 2006

Amazing

I met a guy. He asked me out. We had a wonderful time. When he kissed me good night, my toes curled. He called me earlier and we talked for about an hour. He has a great phone voice. We are going out again tonight. I can't stop smiling.

Thursday, November 02, 2006

Sometimes I need reminded-

An email I received:

As we grow up, we learn that even the one person that wasn't supposed to ever let you down probably will. You will have your heart broken probably more than once and it's harder every time. You'll break hearts too, so remember how it felt when yours was broken. You'll fight with your best friend. You'll blame a new love for things an old one did. You'll cry because time is passing too fast, and you'll eventually lose someone you love. So take too many pictures, laugh too much, and love like you've never been hurt because every sixty seconds you spend upset is a minute of happiness you'll never get back. Don't be afraid that your life will end, be afraid that it will never begin.




Wednesday, November 01, 2006

Not a whole lot going on around here. I had yet another bad date and I'm now thinking of joining a convent. Halloween was uneventful. I had a few little ghouls and goblins drop by. I have WAY too much candy left over so now I have to try and not eat it. Anyone want to chocolate?
I have to start back to work in a couple of weeks. It'll be good to be out and about again but I'm going to miss all this free time. I was able to catch up with some old friends and I even got the house cleaned cleaner. I think that is all that is going on.
So, what is happening in your life?

Tuesday, October 31, 2006

Sunday, October 29, 2006

For Halloween

You Are 32% Evil

A bit of evil lurks in your heart, but you hide it well.
In some ways, you are the most dangerous kind of evil.


Your Unique Costume is Shark Attack

HEEELP!!! This Great White won't be hungry for long!


Your Vampire Name Is...

High Priestess of the Crypt

Saturday, October 28, 2006

What does everyone think of my jack-o-lantern?




(Created on GlassGiant.com)

Tuesday, October 24, 2006

The days of my life...

Nevermore...
-Edgar Allan Poe

See, I read too!



Before I go any further, check out the link over there---------------->
This is a pretty fun game. Be sure you have your sound on because the skeleton will talk and he has a smart mouth.

I have been on a quest to visit all the museums in New York City. So far my favorite has been The Museum of Television and Radio. I have a lot of free time right now and I am making the most of every minute. Anyway, the point of all that drab was-I went to MoMA just to wander around. I've been there before but it has been years and the last time I went I was rushed. This time I was able to take my time and enjoy it. Of course with all this quietness I had way too much time to think which isn't always a good thing.
"I must be getting tired because that looks just like Elliot."
I haven't spent time with him in a while and I have missed allegedly flirting with him. I went to get a closer look. It really was him. He was lost in a photograph and I thought for a moment I shouldn't interrupt him since he may want to be alone. Decisions, decisions. I chose to take a chance. "Expanding your horizons, Stabler?" He must've recognized my voice because he didn't even turn around he just made a comment about his temporary partner. I feel bad for him. It must be tough for him trying to break in a new partner.
We finished looking at the exhibit and went for coffee. He said I could get chocolate but that he didn't eat it while he was working. That's weird. I understand not having Irish Coffee on duty, but chocolate? I had a sarcastic comment to make but I bit my tongue. As usual we talked about everything. I told him I would try to call Kathleen. I know he's worried about her and I am too.
He had to get back so we headed out. As we were parting ways he grabbed me around the waist and gave me a big, wet sloppy kiss. It took me a second to process what happened and react. I was torn as to how I should respond. Then I came to my senses and did the only thing I could do. I slapped him. "You big goof!" People were staring and we were laughing. He invited me to visit again and again I said I would. I know I won't go but it's easier than telling the truth.
I just remembered he ate most of my chocolate. Good thing he gave it up while on duty.

Sunday, October 22, 2006

Another Email I thought I would share

Just in case you need a laugh:

Remember it takes a college degree to fly a plane, but only a
high school diploma to fix one. Reassurance for those of us who fly
routinely in our jobs.

After every flight, Qantas pilots fill out a form, called a
"gripesheet," which tells mechanics about problems with the aircraft.
The mechanics correct the problems, document their repairs on the form,
and then pilots review the gripe sheets before the next flight. Never
let it be said that ground crews lack a sense of humor. Here are some
actual maintenance complaints submitted by Qantas ' pilots (marked with
a P) and the solutions recorded (marked with an S) by maintenance
engineers.

By the way, Qantas is the only major airline that has never,
ever, had an accident.

~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~



P: Left inside main tire almost needs replacement.
S: Almost replaced left inside main tire.

P: Test flight OK, except auto-land very rough.
S: Auto-land not installed on this aircraft.

P: Something loose in cockpit.
S: Something tightened in cockpit.

P: Dead bugs on windshield.
S: Live bugs on back-order.

P: Autopilot in altitude-hold mode produces a 200 feet per
minute descent.
S: Cannot reproduce problem on ground.

P: Evidence of leak on right main landing gear.
S: Evidence removed.

P: DME volume unbelievably loud.
S: DME volume set to more believable level.

P: Friction locks cause throttle levers to stick.
S: That's what friction locks are for.

P: IFF inoperative in OFF mode.
S: IFF always inoperative in OFF mode.

P: Suspected crack in windshield.
S: Suspect you're right.

P: Number 3 engine missing.
S: Engine found on right wing after brief search.

P: Aircraft handles funny.

S: Aircraft warned to: straighten up, fly right, and be serious.

P: Target radar hums.
S: Reprogrammed target radar with lyrics.

P: Mouse in cockpit.
S: Cat installed.

And the best one for last..................

P: Noise coming from under instrument panel. Sounds like a
midget pounding on something with a hammer.
S: Took hammer away from midget

Friday, October 20, 2006

Hey, I'm still around. I've just been very busy, or lazy depending on the day. In a few days I will update everyone on all the new and exciting things that have been going on in my life. Hope everyone is well. Let me know what has been going on in your lives.
Oh I talked to Logan the other day. He seems to be feeling better.

Wednesday, October 18, 2006

Sunday, October 15, 2006

"I am not available right now, but thank you for caring enough to call. I am making some changes in my life. Please leave a message after the beep. If I do not return your call, you are one of the changes." ...BEEP...

Friday, October 13, 2006

I have a new favorite song...

"Uncle Kracker - Memphis Soul Song"

Lookin' back on everything
And all the things that stay
I can count on memories
Cuz they don't go away
Good times were hard to hold
Until she came along
She moves me like a Memphis soul song

I'm not always there I know
But she don't mind at all
As pretty as a picture that hangs on my own wall
She's like Mississippi

When the sun comes up at dawn
She moves me like a Memphis soul song

With an angel on my left side and the devil on my right
She's the one who saves me from them dark unholy nights
Of all the ones who've left me it's a wonder she's not gone
She moves me like a Memphis soul song
She moves me like a Memphis soul song

She don't care what the game is
She's always down to play
My world without her seems a million miles away
She don't have to worry
I know where I belong
She moves me like a Memphis soul song

I've been dealt some aces
And I've played them all the same
But she's the only one that keeps me in the game
No fame or fortune could ever keep me gone
She moves me like a Memphis soul song

With an angel on my left side and the devil on my right
She's the one who saves me from them dark unholy nights
Of all the ones who've left me it's a wonder she's not gone
She moves me like a Memphis soul song
She moves me like a Memphis soul song

[BRIDGE]
There's a magic down in Memphis
That never seems to fade
Even now them voices carry
Like a lonely serenade
It's the memories that still and always will be on my mind
They move me every time

She see's the good in everything there is to see
Sometimes I wonder what she ever see's in me
I'm not always right you know
But she's never led me wrong
She moves me like a Memphis soul song

In all my travels I've never found a way
To find the words that say the things I'd like to say
I've sang some melodies but she's my favorite one
She moves me like a Memphis soul song
With an angel on my lefty side and the devil on my right

She's the one who saves me from them dark unholy nights
Of all the ones who've left me it's a wonder she's not gone
She moves me like a Memphis soul song
She moves me like a Memphis soul song



It is a very pretty song and he has such a beautiful voice.

Friday, October 06, 2006

I'm sorry, the blog you are trying to reach is temporarily out of service. If you feel you have reached this message in error please check the address and try your search again...

Haha kidding. Just thought that sounded cooler than saying I'll be away for a few days. Didn't want you to worry about why I wasn't posting.

Have fun, stay safe and see you in a few days.

Thursday, October 05, 2006

I'm all for this!


You may need to click on it for a better view.

Wednesday, October 04, 2006

"If you get caught between the moon and New York City..."

Since Elliot and Amey are both threatening me I decided I better talk about my date.

Date: Saturday 9-30-06
Time: 7:30 PM Eastern
Place: A quaint little Italian restaurant
Planet: Earth

He picked me up, on time which was impressive. Not that anyone I know *cough* wouldn't be on time *cough* or would think I was supposed to meet them instead of them picking me up. *cough* *cough*
He opened the doors for me, pulled my chair out and complimented my dress. "A girl could get used to this kind of treatment." I believe a woman should be treated like the queen she is.
Note to self-Good answer.
I gave him my shy-flirty half grin. He gave me the smile with a wink.
We spent the next three hours catching up on the last ten years. He told me how difficult it was being single again and how much it hurt him when she left. I tried to be understanding but truth is since I've never been in a meaningful relationship for more than a couple of months, I really couldn't relate. I remember thinking I couldn't believe anyone would let this guy go. He is intelligent, attractive, and successful. I also wondered why I didn't marry him when I had the chance. Oh wait, he never asked me, that's why.
The food was wonderful and so was the company. The night seemed to pass by too quickly.
"I had a very nice time. Thank you." I did too and thank you.
We got to the door...he leaned in...Our eyes met...the perfect evening was about to be sealed with a kiss...I had to catch my breath...his lips touched mine...and I felt...NOTHING! No spark, no electricity, nothing. It was like kissing my brother.
I guess he felt, or rather didn't feel, the same thing because I haven't heard from him since that night.

Tuesday, October 03, 2006

I was reminded today that I needed to let everyone know about my meeting with the old flame. I met up with him Saturday night. I promise I will give details later. Game one of the playoffs is coming on and I have to go watch da boys.

Monday, October 02, 2006

Thought I'd share another email I received:

Working people frequently ask retired people what they do to make their
days interesting.

Well, for example, the other day I went down town and into a shop. I was
only there for about 5 minutes and when I came out there was a cop writing
out a parking ticket. I said to him, "Come on, man, how about giving a
retired person a break"?

He ignored me and continued writing the ticket.

I called him a "Nazi."He glared at me and wrote another ticket for having
worn tires.

So I called him a "doughnut eating Gestapo." He finished the second ticket
and put it on the windshield with the first. Then he wrote a third ticket.
This went on for about 20 minutes.

The more I abused him the more tickets wrote.

Personally, I didn't care. I came down town on the bus and the car that he
was putting the tickets on had a bumper sticker that said "Hillary in
'08."

I try to have a little fun each day now that I'm retired. It's important
to my health.

Saturday, September 30, 2006

Reason #27 I grow my own food:

Look closely at the package just below the words Fresco Lavado.
(You may need to click on the picture for a better view)





Don't forget this brand of fresh lettuce, folks. (Just proves that we MUST wash our lettuce, AGAIN, in those packages) - ?What probably happened is, the water the lettuce was washed in contained polliwogs and these became fresh new frogs, right in the packages. So if you're looking for salad fixin's with a little more body, (in lieu of chicken) - then be sure and try this brand. Don't forget, it's the extra care that companies take that makes the difference

Someone emailed this to me.

Friday, September 29, 2006

Thought I'd share another email I received:

FALL CLASSES FOR MEN
REGISTRATION MUST BE COMPLETED BY Monday, August 28, 2006
NOTE: DUE TO THE COMPLEXITY AND DIFFICULTY LEVEL
OF THEIR CONTENTS, CLASS SIZES WILL BE LIMITED TO 8 PARTICIPANTS MAXIMUM.



Classes begin Monday, September 4, 2006
Class 1
How To Fill Up The Ice Cube Trays --- Step by Step, with Slide Presentation.
Meets 4 weeks, Monday and Wednesday for 2 hours beginning at 7:00 PM.
Class 2
The Toilet Paper Roll --- Does It Change Itself?
Round Table Discussion.
Meets 2 weeks, Saturday 12:00 for 2 hours.
Class 3
Is It Possible To Urinate Using The Technique Of Lifting The Seat and
Avoiding The Floor, Walls and Nearby Bathtub? --- Group Practice.
Meets 4 weeks, Saturday 10:00 PM for 2 hours.
Class 4
Fundamental Differences Between The Laundry Hamper and The Floor ---
Pictures and Explanatory Graphics.
Meets Saturday at 2:00 PM for 3 weeks.
Class 5
After Dinner Dishes --- Can They Levitate and Fly Into The Kitchen Sink?
Examples on Video.
Meets 4 weeks, Tuesday and Thursday for 2 hours beginning at 7:00 PM.
Class 6
Loss Of Identity --- Losing The Remote To Your Significant Other.
Help Line Support and Support Groups.
Meets 4 Weeks, Friday and Sunday 7:00 PM.
Class 7
Learning How To Find Things --- Starting With Looking In The Right Places
And Not Turning The House Upside Down While Screaming.
Open Forum .
Monday at 8:00 PM, 2 hours.
Class 8
Health Watch --- Bringing Her Flowers Is Not Harmful To Your Health.
Graphics and Audio Tapes.
Three nights; Monday, Wednesday, Friday at 7:00 PM for 2 hours.
Class 9
Real Men Ask For Directions When Lost --- Real Life Testimonials.
Tuesday at 6:00 PM Location to be determined.
Class 10
Is It Genetically Impossible To Sit Quietly While She Parallel Parks?
Driving Simulations.
4 weeks, Saturday noon, 2 hours.
Class 11
Learning to Live --- Basic Differences Between Mother and Wife.
Online Classes and role-playing .
Tuesday at 7:00 PM, location to be determined.
Class 12
How to be the Ideal Shopping Companion
Relaxation Exercises, Meditation and Breathing Techniques.
Meets 4 weeks, Tuesday and Thursday for 2 hours ! Beginning at 7:00 PM.
Class 13
How to Fight Cerebral Atrophy --- Remembering Birthdays, Anniversaries and Other Important Dates and Calling When You're Going To Be Late.
Cerebral Shock Therapy Sessions and Full Lobotomies Offered.
Three nights; Monday, Wednesday, Friday at 7:00 PM for 2 hours.
Class 14
The Stove/Oven --- What It Is and How It Is Used.
Live Demonstration.
Tuesday at 6:00 PM, location to be determined.

Upon completion of any of the above courses, diplomas will be issued to the survivors.

Thursday, September 28, 2006

Whew, what a day. I rolled out of bed at the crack of NOON. Talked myself out of doing laundry. Talked myself out of going grocery shopping. Rewatched my Taz dvd while having lunch. All of this wore me out so I took a nap. Had an interesting conversation about which of the Ed's is better. I think "double D" is the best, he thought Eddy was. Yep, not having anywhere to be is real rough.

Wednesday, September 27, 2006

Have you ever just been happy to be alive? For some reason when I woke up today I was happy just to know I was alive. Weird, huh?
My last day at MCS came and went quietly. I'll miss working with Mike and dropping by to flirt aggravate visit with Elliot. Don't get used to my absence though man because I WILL be dropping by as often as possible! I am taking a couple of weeks off before I start the next chapter in my life. I will be catching up with some friends and some housework and I will be getting together with that old flame soon. I decided on the first dress by the way. I wouldn't be able to wear that second one without wondering what it would look like on Elliot, thanks for ruining that outfit for me. (Haha, that was a joke!)
I think that is all for now. Hope everyone has an enjoyable rest of the week.

Sunday, September 24, 2006

Emotional weekend

Friday night was obviously bad. One of those nights that I felt too lonely. This whole career change has taken its toll on me, worse than I had expected. This weekend also marks the anniversary of when a childhood friend of mine was killed. There was an accident where he worked and he didn't make it. We had been very close for years so naturally this weekend is always a rollercoaster of emotions. I remember the crazy things we did and it makes me laugh. We had lost touch the last few years of his life. I saw him about a month before it happened. It was the first time I had seen him in years, we talked for a few minutes about old times. He asked if I wanted to go see a movie with him that night. For whatever reason I couldn't go so I had to tell him no. We made plans to get together another time. The next time I saw him was at the funeral. Actually I didn't even see him then, it was closed casket. It bothers me that I wasn't able to go see that movie with him, even now I can't watch the movie he wanted me to go see.
Anyway, enough of that.

Saturday, September 23, 2006

I hate nights like tonight.

I ate WAY too much chocolate so I can't sleep. As I wander around my quiet house I am reminded how alone I feel. During the day I stay busy enough that it doesn't bother me, but the night, the night is another story. I really thought my life would be different than it is now. Not exactly sure how, just know I thought it would be different. I was never one that subscribed to the belief that you should get married right after school and live happily ever after. I always thought it was better to have a life between leaving your parent's and getting married. Which I did, but somewhere along the way I forgot to take the time to find the one. I guess I got too caught up in the career mode and failed to focus on the personal life. So here I sit, alone on yet another Friday night trying to decide where I went wrong. I've had dates and men I really liked. I mean liked well enough to want to make a life together but something always goes wrong. I'm not sure if men are intimidated by my job or if I am just not a likeable person. Not as in liked as a friend, but liked in that deeper intimate way.
Okay, I probably shouldn't write when I'm in this kind of mood. I need to find something to counteract the over dose of caffeine. Good thing I'm not on call anymore. And while I'm on that topic, I still don't know if I made the right choice, but there is no turning back now. Anyway, I need to go now.

Friday, September 22, 2006

Number 9, Number 9

Yanks celebrate ninth straight AL East title

Way to go guys!
(Yes I know this happened a couple of days ago, I forgot to mention it.)

Thursday, September 21, 2006

Question.....

I saw something today that made me think. It said "Friends are like balloons once you let one go you can't get it back". Or something like that. Anyway the point is, do you think that is true? I think you can get it back but, depending on the reason, it may never be the same again. What does everyone think?

Sunday, September 17, 2006

I want another opinion please...

I talked to that old flame I had mentioned, the one who is single again. We made plans to meet up in a couple of weeks. I am a little nervous which is silly because I've known him seems like forever. Anyway, I was trying to decide what to wear. Would one of these outfits be a good choice?






Saturday, September 16, 2006

I want your opinion

I was looking through some old photos and it made me think that maybe I should do something different with my hair. So, what does everyone think?
Should I get it cut:


Or let it grow long again:


My garden was heavenly looking in this picture don't you think? :)

Thursday, September 14, 2006

Yesterday was relatively calm at work, thank goodness! I got all the paperwork caught up and had time to make a few phone calls. I finally called Liv. We made plans to get together one day. If I calculated right, there should be a couple of days after I leave before she starts back. If not, then we can work something else out. Nothing much else going on.
I wanted to share another email I received. So Liv, Chloe, Nomi, and the very few other female friends I have, this is for you!


Thank you all for being my "sister".


Subject: Sisters

A young wife sat on a sofa on a hot humid day,
drinking iced tea and visiting with her Mother. As they talked about
> life, about marriage, about the responsibilities of life and the
> obligations of adulthood, the mother clinked the ice cubes in her
> glass thoughtfully and turned a clear, sober glance upon her daughter.
>
> "Don't forget your Sisters," she advised, swir ling the tea leaves to
> the bottom of her glass. "They'll be more important as you get older.
> No matter how much you love your husband, no matter how much you love
> the children you may have, you are still going to need Sisters.
>
> Remember to go places with them now and then; do things with them.
>
> Remember that 'Sisters' mean ALL the women... your girlfriends, your
> daughters, and all your other women relatives. You'll need other
> women. Women always do."
>
> 'What a funny piece of advice!' the young woman thought. 'Haven't I
> just gotten married? Haven't I just joined the couple-world? I'm now a

> married woman, for goodness sake! A grownup! Surely my husband and the

> family we may start will be all I need to make my life worthwhile!'
>
> But she listened to her Mother. She kept contact with her Sisters and
> made more women friends each year. As the years tumbled by, one after
> another, she gradually came to understand that her Mom really knew
> what she was talking about.
>
> As time and nature work their changes and their mysteries upon a
> woman, Sisters are the mainstays of her life.
>
> After over 60 years of living in this world, here is what I've
> learned:
> Time passes.
> Life happens.
> Distance separates.
> Children grow up.
> Jobs come and go.
> Love waxes and wanes.
> Men don't do what sisters do.
> Hearts break.
> Parents die.
> Careers end.
>
> BUT......
> Sisters are there, no matter how much time and how many miles are
> between you. A girl friend is never farther away than needing her can
> reach.
>
> When you have to walk that lonesome valley and you have to walk it by
> yourself, the women in your life will be on the valley's rim, cheering

> you on, praying for you, pulling for you, intervening on your behalf,
> and waiting with open arms at the valley's end.
> Sometimes, they will even break the rules and walk beside you or come
> in and carry you out.
>
> Girlfriends, daughters, granddaughters, daughters-in-law, sisters,
> sisters-in-law, Mothers, Grandmothers, aunts, nieces, cousins, and
> extended family, all bless our life.
>
> The world wouldn't be the same without those women, and neither would
> I. When we began this adventure called womanhood, we had no idea of
> the incredible joys or sorrows that lay ahead. Nor did we know how
> much we would need each other. Every day, we need each other still.
>

Tuesday, September 12, 2006

WOMAN'S POEM...
Before I lay me down to sleep,
I pray for a man, who's not a creep,
One who's handsome, smart and strong.
One who loves to listen long,
One who thinks before he speaks,
One who'll call, not wait for weeks.
I pray he's gainfully employed,
When I spend his cash, won't be annoyed.
Pulls out my chair and opens my door,
Massages me back and begs to do more.
Oh! Send me a man who'll make love to my mind,
Knows what to answer to "how big is my behind?"
I pray that this man will love me to no end,
And always be my very best friend.


A Man's Poem...
I pray for a deaf-mute nymphomaniac with huge boobs
Who owns a liquor store and a golf course. This
Doesn't rhyme and I don't give a CRAP.

Sunday, September 10, 2006

Spock, Elrond and Elliot?

I was able to find that jacuzzi and it was very relaxing, at least while I was in it. Unfortunately that was a very short-lived feeling. When I got back to my empty house, reality set in again. I was well on my way to getting depressed when there was a knock at the door. I wonder who that could be? I'm not expecting anyone. I took a second to pull myself together and opened the door. It was Elliot. What was he doing here? He asked if I had coffee. "I didn't know you were stopping by." He apologized for not calling first and said he could come back later if it was a bad time. I assured him it was okay but that I wouldn't be the best company. He understood. After I put the coffee on we talked about how difficult it was knowing whether a decision was the right one or not. I'm still not sure but there is no turning back now. We talked about me spending more time with him, Liv and Eli. They know I have been busy lately, thank goodness, otherwise I would have to try and explain the real reason I haven't visited them more often. I'll tell him one day but not now, it might make things different and I have enough changes going on right now. I sat in the floor while he went to fix our drinks. He always makes them stronger than I do which was a good thing last night. He sat down beside me as he handed me a drink. It was good. I didn't want to talk about me and he didn't want to talk about him. That is when things got weird. I had been watching a special about the 40th Anniversary of Star Trek so I suggested talking about who was more powerful-Vulcans or the Elves from Tolkein's books. Things get fuzzy after that. I vaguely remember him kissing my forehead as he was leaving. Of course that could have been an Irish coffee induced dream. Uh-oh, I think I called him "El". He hates being called that. Oops! Anyway, I woke up this morning with a headache and a little soreness from sleeping on the couch so I am turning the phones off and going back to bed.

Saturday, September 09, 2006

It's all over but the crying...

I FINALLY got all the loose ends tied up at work. Everything is ready for Mike's new partner to move into my desk. Whoa, that just almost made me cry. Anyway, I'll still be around the squad for another couple of weeks but I won't really be involved in any major cases except under an extreme emergency. After that I am taking a week or two off just for me. I'm planning a mini vacation to go visit some old friends. It should be fun. An old flame of mine is single again and rumor has it he was asking about me. That should make the trip a little more interesting. I'll let you know if anything exciting happens. As for today...I'm looking for a jacuzzi to relax in because the past few weeks have been busy and stressful and I feel the need to pamper myself.

Friday, September 08, 2006

Still busy so I thought I'd just share another email. Yeah, I know that's the lazy way to do it, but I'm tired.


The Bathtub Test

It doesn't hurt to take a hard look at yourself from time to time, and this should help get you started.

During a visit to the mental hospital, a visitor asked the Director what the criterion was which defined whether or not a patient should be institutionalized.

"Well," said the Director, "we fill up a bathtub, then we offer a teaspoon, a teacup and a bucket to the patient and ask him or her to empty the bathtub."

"Oh, I understand," said the visitor. "A normal person would use the bucket because it's bigger than the spoon or the teacup."

"No." said the Director, "A normal person would pull the plug. Do you want a bed near the window?"


DID YOU PASS, OR DO YOU WANT THE BED NEXT TO MINE?


Wednesday, September 06, 2006

Quick update...

I'm trying to make sure things are in order before Mike's new partner gets here so I have been very busy. I think I've done all I can now, almost. Still a couple of loose ends I need to tie up. He liked the shirt by the way. I think I'm really going to miss working with the big goof. I'm really going to miss a lot of people but we promised to keep in touch. That is about all I have time for now.

Sunday, September 03, 2006

Today

I slept most of the day. It was great because I was exhausted. Although, I hate wasting a day off by just sleeping because I have so much to do around here. I haven't given my place a good cleaning in quite a while. Where is that drunk-hyper maid when I need him? I HAD to go shopping, which I hate, but I had no food and my desire to eat was stronger than my hatred of shopping. Cripes, I forgot to get ice cream. Anyway, while I was out I saw this shirt that reminded me of Big Mike so I had to get it:



Think he'll like it?
I got to get this stuff put away and I should probably consider doing laundry again. Hope everyone has a safe and happy Labor Day.

Friday, September 01, 2006

Whew, bad headache today. I feel miserable AND I have no ice cream. I talked to Mike a couple of times this week. He seems to be almost feeling better, maybe. I told him to suck it up and get his butt back to work! I'm kidding. I told him to take care of himself and asked if there was anything I could do for him. I even said it in my sweet little baby voice, okay I did that part just to bug him but still! I sure am glad it's the weekend...no wait, I have to work tomorrow...but Sunday, SUNDAY is mine ALL mine! Got to remember to turn my phone off that day! I have to do something to get rid of this headache enjoy another email I received:


SUPERMARKET SURROUND SOUND

The new Supermarket near our house has an automatic water mister to keep the produce fresh. Just before it goes on, you hear the sound of distant thunder and the smell of fresh rain.

When you approach the milk cases, you hear cows mooing and witness the scent of fresh hay.

When you approach the egg case, you hear hens cluck and cackle and the air is filled with the pleasing aroma of bacon and eggs frying.

The veggie department features the smell of fresh buttered corn.

I don't buy toilet paper there any more.

Thursday, August 31, 2006

Once upon a time

~~~~~~~~

in a land far away,

~~~~~~~~

a beautiful, independent,

~~~~~~~~

self-assured princess

~~~~~~~~

happened upon a frog as she sat

~~~~~~~~

contemplating ecological issues

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on the shores of an unpolluted pond

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in a verdant meadow near her castle.

~~~~~~~~

The frog hopped into the princess' lap

~~~~~~~~

and said: " Elegant Lady,

~~~~~~~~

I was once a handsome prince,

~~~~~~~~

until an evil witch cast a spell upon me.

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One kiss from you, however,

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and I will turn back

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into the dapper, young prince that I am

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and then, my sweet, we can marry

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and set up housekeeping in your castle

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with my mother,

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where you can prepare my meals,

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clean my clothes, bear my children,

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and forever feel

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grateful and happy doing so. "

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That night,

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as the princess dined sumptuously

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on lightly sauted frog legs

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seasoned in a white wine

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and onion cream sauce,

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she chuckled and thought to herself:

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I don't freakin think so

Wednesday, August 30, 2006

Hey, a lot of stuff going on right now. I'll get back to real posts in a few days. Until then, enjoy another email I received...

I think the life cycle is all backwards.
You should start out dead and get it out of the way.
Then, you wake up in an old age home feeling better every day.
You get kicked out for being too healthy; go collect your pension,
then when you start work, you get a gold watch on your first day.
You work 40 years until you're young enough to enjoy your retirement.
You drink alcohol, you party, you're generally promiscuous and you get
ready for High School.
You go to primary school, you become a kid, you play, you have no
responsibilities, you become a baby, and then...
You spend your last 9 months floating peacefully in luxury, in spa-like
conditions; central heating, room service on tap, larger quarters every day,
and then, you finish off as an orgasm

Monday, August 28, 2006

Someone sent me this, I thought it was cute


HOW TO INSTALL A HOME SECURITY SYSTEM


1. Go to a second-hand store and buy a pair of men's used size 14-16 work
boots.

2. Place them on your front porch, along with several empty beer cans, a
copy of Guns & Ammo magazine and several NRA magazines.

3. Put a few giant dog dishes next to the boots and magazine.

4. Leave a note on your door that reads:


Hey Bubba, Big Jim, Duke and Slim, I went to the gun shop for more
ammunition. Back in an hour. Don't mess with the pit bulls -- they attacked the
mailman this morning and messed him up real bad. I don't think Killer took part in
it but it was hard to tell from all the blood.
PS - I locked all four of 'em in the house. Better wait outside.

Sunday, August 27, 2006

From a friend of a friend

Posted with her permission

19 Ways A Guy Can Keep A Girl

1. DON'T FORCE HER TO DO ANYTHING.
[She won't trust you if you do & it'll be awkward]

2. Grab her hand when you walk next to each other.
[She always gets butterflies when you do it; it makes her feel like you want her]

3. When standing, wrap your arms around her.
[It makes her feel like you really love her.]

4. Cuddle with her.
[She'll feel like your there for her]

5. Hug her from behind.
[It makes her feel special]

6. Write little notes.
[She smiles. They're cute; The end]

7. Compliment her honestly.
[No girl likes a liar and no girl likes a person who lies about it when you compliment her]

8. When you hug her, hold her in your arms as long as possible.
[It makes her feel wanted]

9. Be super sweet to her.
[All girls like a super sweet guy]

10. Call her at night to wish her sweet dreams.
[She'll go to bed with a smile]

11. Comfort her when she cries.
[She'll feel like you'll ALWAYS be there for her]

12.Wipe away her tears.
[It'll show you'll always be there]

13. Love her with all your heart.
[Not with your brain...or any other "organ" of your body]

14. Pick her up and flirt with her
(She'll scream and say put me down but really she loves it).
[It's true boys!]

15. Be a gentleman (Hold the door for her).
[Every girl loves a guy who is a gentleman]

16. DON'T let your friends talk trash about her, it'll get back 2 her.
[Plus it'll make her feel like you aren't really there for her]

17. Take her for a long walk at night!
[She just wants to be alone. & that's not always bad. The world can be annoying sometimes & you just need to be alone]

18. When it's cold outside hold her close.
[You want her to be happy & she's happy in your arms]

19. Draw on or rub her back as she is tryin to rest or sleep.
[This just feels good HAHA!] {Not with a pen you idiot, with your finger!}

Girls - repost this if you think it's sweet!

Guys - repost this if you would do any of it!

Friday, August 25, 2006

Lessons in leadership

Or more aptly: Four hours of my life I'll never get back.
I was deep in thought ,trying to remember what possessed me to sign up for one of these things, when I felt someone sit next to me. I didn't look up because I wasn't really in the mood for meeting new people. Then I hear Let's get out of here. I jumped and turned to give this bold person a piece of my mind and was pleasntly surpirsed to see Elliot. He is the last person I expected to see here. I jokingly asked if he signed up for it because I KNOW he NEVER attends these things. I signed up before my decision to leave MCS. I attended anyway to get away from my desk for awhile. I was glad Elliot was there, even if he got me in trouble. I thought we were going to get sent to the principal's office for passing notes. And for the record the rookie did NOT ask me out. He asked if he needed to throw us out. Apparently he cared about the 14 points of quality leadership a lot more than we did. Finally it was over and we went to get a cup of coffee or 20 because we were like Night of the Living Dead after that session. We caught up on things. He told me how the kids were and how sorry he was that McCoy and I didn't work out. I told him I would call Benson one day and gave him a hard time about not trusting me to keep the baby for an entire weekend. "You know, I helped raise my sister's kids and all of them survived. Well there was this one incident with the smallest one but it wasn't my fault." That got a cute look from him. "I was joking Elliot. Nothing happened other than normal childhood activites." I also let him know I would help out anyway I could with Dickie. Then he went all sweet on me. Hugged me, told me how much he loves me. I teared up, maybe he didn't notice. It was time to leave soon after that. We said our goodbyes and parted ways.

Thursday, August 24, 2006

Too tired for something original, again

So I thought I would share another funny email. I promise I'll write a real post soon!

Two elderly women were eating breakfast in a restaurant one morning. Ethel noticed something funny about Mabel's ear and she said, '"Mabel, do you know you've got a suppository in your left ear?" Mabel answered, "I have a suppository in my ear?" She pulled it out and stared at it.
Then she said, "Ethel, I'm glad you saw this thing. Now I think I know where to find my hearing aid."

Two elderly ladies had been friends for many decades. Over the years they had shared all kinds of activities and adventures. Lately, their activities had been limited to meeting a few times a week to play cards.
One day they were playing cards when one looked at the other and said, "Now don't get mad at me....I know we've been friends for a long time.....but I just can't think of your name! I've thought and thought, but I can't remember it. Please tell me what your name is." Her friend glared at her. For at least three minutes she just stared and glared at her. Finally she said, "How soon do you need to know?"



THE SENILITY PRAYER
Grant me the senility to forget the people I never liked anyway,
The good fortune to run into the ones I do,
And the eyesight to tell the difference.

Tuesday, August 22, 2006

Too tired for something original

So I thought I'd share an email I received.

1. Do not walk behind me, for I may not lead. Do not walk ahead of
me, for I may not follow. Do not walk beside me either. Just pretty
much leave me the hell alone.
2. The journey of a thousand miles begins with a broken fan belt and
a Leaky tire.
3. It's always darkest before dawn. So if you're going to steal your
Neighbor's newspaper, that's the time to do it.
4. Don't be irreplaceable. If you can't be replaced, you can't be
promoted.
5. Always remember that you're unique. Just like everyone else.
6. Never test the depth of the water with both feet.
7 . If you think nobody cares if you're alive, try missing a couple
of your payments.
8. Before you criticize someone, you should walk a mile in their
shoes. That way, when you criticize them, you're a mile away and you
have their shoes.
9. If at first you don't succeed, skydiving is not for you.
10. Give a man a fish and he will eat for a day. Teach him how to
fish, and he will sit in a boat and drink beer all day.
11. If you lend someone $20 and never see that person again, it was
probably worth it.
12. If you tell the truth, you don't have to remember anything.
13. Some days you're the bug; some days you're the windshield.
14. Everyone seems normal until you get to know them.
15. The quickest way to double your money is to fold it in half and
put it back in your pocket.
16. A closed mouth gathers no foot.
17. Duct tape is like 'The Force'. It has a light side and a dark
side, and it holds the universe together.
18. There are two theories to arguing with women. Neither one works.
19. Generally speaking, you aren't learning much when your lips are
moving.
20. Experience is something you don't get until just after you need
it.
21. Never miss a good chance to shut up.
22. Never, under any circumstances, take a sleeping pill and a
laxative on the same night.

Monday, August 21, 2006

I never thought it would happen but I have found an ice cream flavor I like better than chocolate chip cookie dough. And the winner is...Reeses peanut putter cup ice cream. It is very good!
I had a few minutes so I thought I would say hi! I have to get back to work.

Saturday, August 19, 2006

Nothing exciting going on, working double shifts this weekend.

Thursday, August 17, 2006

I ditched work and went to the Yankees game. It was hot and they got beat but I enjoyed myself. I LOVE watching the games live. There is nothing like it. Baseball, hotdogs, apple pie... Except I don't really like apple pie and I wasn't in the mood for a hotdog so I opted for baseball, nachos and ice cream.
Not much else going on. Work is busy but not overwhelming. Hmmm...tomorrow night is Friday, I wonder if I'll be cooking for my partner again? I was thinking it would be nice if he cooked for me this week BUT then I remembered what his apartment looked like last time I was there and decided it wasn't worth the risk. That was a joke Big Mike! I think that's all for now.
Oh I almost forgot: Elliot & Liv-Ayez un voyage merveilleux!

Wednesday, August 16, 2006

Another one bites the dust...

I just think it's better this way Carolyn.
"If you say so, Jack."
It's just that I have no idea when my case load will get any better and I know I can't give you the kind of attention you deserve. It wouldn't be fair of me to ask you to wait around for me when I honestly don't know when I will have time to spend with you.
"It's okay, I understand. I enjoyed our time together."
Me too. I'll talk to you later, okay?
"Yep...bye"
click

Sunday, August 13, 2006

The long and boring day...

Today seemed like the longest day ever. I don't know why either. Possibly because I was avoiding doing some things I needed to do? When I have to do things that I really don't want to do it is extremely hard to get motivated. I spent part of the day with my sister. I don't get to see her very often so it was nice to visit with her. We had lunch together and talked about some of the things going on in both our lives. She has a husband and children so there is always something going on with them. Band, ballgames, chorus, they stay pretty busy which is one of the reasons I don't see her much. After she left I was thinking about some of the things we talked about and how things look different depending on your perspective. I look at her with her family and wonder what it would be like if I had someone to come home to, care about, have care about me and all that. I've always thought she was lucky to find someone to have a family with. She looks at me and thinks I'm the lucky one because I only have myself to worry about. She tells people I am the smart one because I chose to stay single. See, two different perspectives...The grass is always greener?
Oh well, I should probably get some laundry done, I don't think my partner would like me to come to work without clothes. On second thought, it is Mike we're talking about, he wouldn't care or worse...he wouldn't even notice!

Saturday, August 12, 2006

Just Because...

Babe, tomorrow's so far away
There's somethin' I just have to say
I don't think I could hide
What I'm feelin' inside
Another day
Knowin' I love you

And I - I'm gettin' too close again
I don't wanna see it end
If I tell you tonight
Will you turn out the light
And walk away
Knowin' I love you?

And, I feel like today's the day
I'm lookin' for the words to say
Do you wanna be free
Are you ready for me
To feel this way?
I don't wanna lose ya

So it may be too soon I know
The feelin' takes so long to grow
If I tell you today
Will you turn me away
And let me go?
I don't wanna lose you

And, feelin' the way I do
I don't wanna wait my whole life through
To say I'm in love with you

Livin' La Vida Logan

Mike came over to eat again. He asked if he could. Well first he tried to get me to go see Pirates with him, but I said no. "It's not that I don't want to go to the movie, I know what happens to you when you see anything about a pirate, Captain Mike Sparrow." After several minutes of pointless discussion about planks and booty, we agreed that I would cook, he would come over with ice cream and we would watch a DVD not about pirates.
I was just finishing up the food when he arrived without ice cream. "I only asked you to do one thing and you couldn't remember to do it?"
What can I say, I got stuff on my mind and I was already running late and we don't really have to have it.
"You're always late so I wouldn't have thought anything about it. There is a store around the corner, just go there while I get things finished here."
I don't want toooo. He whined. How about if we just do without?
"Okay, fine with me. How about you do without eating?"
That's fine, I don't have to eat.
"Suit yourself." I continued getting things ready while he pouted in the living room. A few minutes later I heard the door close. He just left without even saying bye. I made him mad, great just what I need and what am I supposed to do with all this food? I was getting ready to call him to apologize and ask him to come back when the door opened. It was him, ice cream in hand. I gave him my "what the heck" look. He smiled and said It smelled good and I'm starving.
We ate and talked. "So it's Friday night, want to tell me the real reason you wanted to hang out with me?"
I just thought it would be nice to spend time together.
"Oh. Okay then." Like I really believe that! "Don't you have an alleged girlfriend you should be spending time with?"
He ate more.
She had plans with some of her friends. Friday night is friend night and I chose you!
"Isn't that sweet?" Still not buying it. "So why didn't you just have a Munch adventure? You two always have fun."
He ate more.
Oh, you didn't hear? He and I aren't speaking. We got in another fight.
He said they had a disagreement about whether John had been in a Russian Gulag. "A very relevant argument. Sounds like something to not speak to your best friend about. Don't I feel special that you're spending time with me because the girlfriend is busy and you're fighting with your best friend?"
He finally finished eating and slowly made his way to the living room. He did not like my viewing choice: "Fine you want to watch something else, you go pick something out!" He tried to get up, but couldn't because he was too full.
All the way over there? On second thought, this is a great DVD.
We spent the rest of the evening watching "You can't fix stupid". He fell asleep before it was over. I left him on the couch and hoped he didn't decide to take his pants off. He has this thing about couches and pants. I would hate to have to buy a new couch. He wasn't here when I got up and neither were his pants. I took that as a good sign.
Lessons learned: If Mike is hungry and you have food...You have power. I should have made him clean the house. If Mike eats too much he will agree to whatever you say as long as no moving is required...You have power.

Thursday, August 10, 2006

Nothing very exciting today. Work was the same. The trip home was the same. I did buy lunch for an old friend today, that was kind of interesting. Did you know some guys freak out a bit when a woman buys them lunch? I didn't think it was such a big deal but I was wrong. C'est la vie où je suppose. As I was sitting here, I lost my train of thought, I need to go look for it. I hate it when that happens.

Wednesday, August 09, 2006

Well crud, my dinner plans got cancelled again. Good thing I have a relatively healthy ego. Since my evening is shot once more, I guess I will heat up some leftovers, then pop in a good cd and just try to relax. A nice relaxing bath would be wonderful, too bad I only have a shower. It's not quite the same. I should probably check on my ice cream stash too, make sure I have enough for an evening in. I hope so because I am in no mood to go shopping.
Oh and for the record, I HATE wanting something that I can't have!

Tuesday, August 08, 2006

In Dallas, TX, at a busy bus stop, a beautiful young woman wearing a
tight mini-skirt was waiting for a bus. As the bus stopped and it
was her turn to get on, she became aware that her skirt was too
tight to allow her leg to come up to the height of the first step of
the bus.

Slightly embarrassed and with a quick smile to the bus driver, she
reached behind her to unzip her skirt a little, thinking that this
would give her enough slack to raise her leg. She tried to take the
step, only to discover that she couldn't.

So, a little more embarrassed, she once again reached behind her to
unzip her skirt a little more, and for the second time attempted the
step. Once again, much to her chagrin, she could not raise her leg.
With a little smile to the driver, she again reached behind to unzip
a little more, and again was unable to take the step. About this
time, a large Texan who was standing behind her, picked her up
easily by the waist and placed her gently on the step of the bus.

She went ballistic, and turned to the would-be Samaritan and yelled,
"How dare you touch my body! I don't even know who you are!"

The Texan smiled and drawled, "Well, ma'am, normally I would agree
with you, but after you unzipped my fly three times, I kinda figured
we was friends."

Monday, August 07, 2006

Can't think of a title

Just when I think I got things under control, a monkey-wrench gets thrown in to mess me up again. I really am okay though. People who read this probably think I am just the misery chick queen, but honest I'm not. Normally I am a very together person who is happy most of the time. On second thought, I am all that on the outside. I let things build up inside and share it here because this is my outlet. (It's cheaper than a shrink.) Besides, how boring would it be reading about someone who never had any problems?
Yesterday I had a cartoon marathon. It was great! Ice cream and Taz, you can't go wrong there! The only way it could've been better was if I would've had some company, but you can't have everything.
Today was okay. Too hot. Too much paperwork. Too little Jack. Pretty boring.

Sunday, August 06, 2006

Do I have to put a title?

I slept most of yesterday. Actually I would get up for a little while then go back to bed. Just one of those lazy days. Thank goodness I didn't get called into work because I definitely did not want to go. And now for something completely different...Not really completely different but I watched Monty Python last night and I wanted an opportunity to use that line. The situation is not that different exactly, but I've experienced some different feelings. That's probably not accurate either, I'm sure the feeling was there I just didn't realize it or chose to ignore it. Somedays I just feel stupid, or rather I feel like I want to do something that in the long run would be stupid. I didn't, but I sure wanted to and that bothers me. Doing the right thing has never been as painful as it was recently. Sadly, I'm not able to elaborate though I really should. I'd rather deal with it inwardly for the time being. Okay, I don't think I'm making much sense so I shall not so subtly change topics...
I had the weirdest dream last night. Bill Mumy, that kid from the original Lost in Space was in it, as an adult not a kid. It was just bizarre, why would he show up in my dream? I guess because I had seen a special about child stars that he was on. Paul Petersen from The Donna Reed Show was on the special too and HE didn't show up in my dream. It was a shame too because I had a HUGE crush on him growing up.
I haven't talked to Mike since we ate the other night. I haven't talked to Jack in a week but hopefully he and I are having coffee together in a day or two.
I think that's all. I hope it is anyway because my brain feels empty.

Saturday, August 05, 2006

Sometimes in life, you find a special friend;
Someone who changes your life
just by being part of it.
Someone who makes you laugh
until you can't stop;
Someone who makes you believe
that there really is good in the world.
Someone who convinces you
that there really is an unlocked door
just waiting for you to open it.


I wonder why it is seems so simple to fix other people's problems and so difficult to fix my own? Maybe it is all about perspective. I guess because it's easier to see the whole picture when it is someone else's problem?
Elliot for instance, can always makes me feel better about the things I'm going through. Even if only for a while. I hope the reverse is also true, that I make him feel better. It just floors me that he can be so insecure. I mean look at him: He is ALWAYS there when I need him. He is very smart, funny, and...at the risk of giving him a big head...he is very attractive. So why does he have such a hard time believing that Liv loves him and isn't going anywhere? Past demons I suppose. Once bitten, twice shy? For some reason I am always amazed when I see men struggling with self-esteem issues almost as much as I struggle with them.
I also wonder why the first thing the guys thought when I told them we needed to talk was "Are you pregnant?" Get real guys, if that was the case I'm sure I would need to tell someone else before I told you two.

Because stuff happens

Logan came over. I knew he would, like me he's not one to pass up a free home-cooked meal.
After the meal I served ice cream and Irish Coffee. Great combo don't you think?
"Mike, uh, I kind of need to tell you something."
He could tell I was struggling to get the words out. You're not pregnant are you?
"Aren't you cute? No, I'm not."
Just thought I'd check.
As unrealistic as that question was, it eased the tension and I was able to continue. Or was it that I was on my third Irish Coffee, light on the coffee? (Elliot's recipe of course) Whatever the reason I told him about my decision, one of the most difficult ones I have ever made. I struggled for quite a while before making up my mind. Logan being Logan, I can never really get a good read on him. I'm not sure if he was upset, relieved, confused or what.
"I wanted to make sure you heard it from me and not through the grapevine because I know what some people will probably think. I need you to know it has nothing to do with you. You are a great partner, detective and friend."
We talked for another few minutes. Thanks for the food and for letting me know. I'm meeting someone soon so I need to go.
"Getting some late-night lab work done?"
He gave me that smirk and left.
It went better than I thought it would. Next on the agenda is to let Elliot know. Maybe it isn't too late to call him.
Rats, got his voice-mail. "Hey, it's Barek. I need to talk to you when you have a chance. Thanks."
I won't be sleeping anytime soon so maybe he'll call back.